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  Copyright © 2017 by Leah Weiss

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  Cover design by Lisa Amoroso

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  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Names: Weiss, Leah, author.

  Title: If the creek don't rise : a novel / Leah Weiss.

  Description: Naperville, Illinois : Sourcebooks Landmark, 2017.

  Identifiers: LCCN 2017001928 | (pbk. : alk. paper)

  Subjects: LCSH: Country life--North Carolina--Fiction. | Domestic fiction.

  Classification: LCC PS3623.E45554 I38 2017 | DDC 813/.6--dc23 LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2017001928

  For Paul, the brighter star

  For Glo, the wind in my sail

  For Dave, the honey in my days

  Contents

  Front Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Sadie Blue

  Gladys Hicks

  Marris Jones

  Eli Perkins

  Eli Perkins

  Prudence Perkins

  Kate Shaw

  Kate Shaw

  Tattler Swann

  Sadie Blue

  Birdie Rocas

  Billy Barnhill

  Roy Tupkin

  Sadie Blue

  Reading Group Guide

  A Conversation with the Author

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Back Cover

  Sadie Blue

  I struggle to my feet, straighten my back, lift my chin, then he hits me again. This time I fall down and stay down while he counts, “…eight, nine, ten.” He walks out the trailer door and slams it hard. The latch don’t catch, and the door pops open. I lay on the floor and watch Roy Tupkin cross the dirt yard and disappear into the woods.

  My world’s gone sideways again.

  “Sadie girl.” Daddy’s spirit voice comes soft from behind my open eyes. “You got yourself in a pickle this time. No two ways about it. That husband of yours won’t stop till you and your baby draw your last breath. You don’t even look like yourself no more. He broke bout every piece of sweet in you. You gonna let him break your spirit, too? You gonna do nothing?”

  I’m tired, Daddy. Wore out. Roy Tupkin don’t just beat me, he beats me down. Let me rest a spell. I don’t know if I can lift my head just yet.

  Now Daddy’s voice comes from the yard where a lone wind rattles late-summer oak leaves and sounds like hollow bones. “If I could follow the bastard and kill him for you, I would, sweet girl, but it don’t work like that.” His voice drifts toward the rusty red truck up on blocks. “Don’t lay there too long, Sadie. You don’t need rest.” His words fade. “You need…”

  What, Daddy? What do I need? I listen but he’s gone.

  Percy scampers in from the hunt with a dead chipmunk. He drops his gift by my hand. When I don’t move, he nudges it close till I raise a finger and touch fur that’s still warm. Then he crawls on the rise of my belly and curls up. Purrs vibrate clean through to my spine.

  I gotta get away, Percy, but don’t know how. Gotta be careful.

  Percy listens good but he’s short on advice. I can’t think what to do right off with my brain muddled from this morning’s beating, so I gather strength to move. Shadows grow longer, and cold air glides across the doorjamb, giving me goose bumps. I roll over gentle to my side, scattering pieces of the green plastic radio I got working at Mooney’s Rusty Nickel. Little Percy slides off without complaint. I put my palms on the floor and push to my knees. My arms tremble. My heart pounds in my ears. A bloody smear on the floor marks where my head landed. I brush sticky hair off my temple, hold on to the counter, and pull up, dizzy, one hand on my baby bump. I don’t know I’m crying salty tears till they sting the cut on my cheek.

  “You know what you gotta do.” Daddy’s voice is back burrowing inside my ear.

  I do? Tell me and I’ll do it.

  “You’ll figure it out. You got smarts you don’t even know bout yet.”

  Daddy loves me better in death than he ever did in life. In life, when I was ten, with my hair in crooked braids, me sitting on a overturned bucket in a corner of the kitchen, watching the men round the table gamble, he throwed a night with me in the poker pot instead of five dollars he don’t have. Granny and Aunt Marris never heard what he done, and I don’t say cause they’d take a belt to him and take me away from him when he needs me. Daddy won the hand. Said he counted on it. But he woulda made good on his bet if he’d lost. He won’t go back on his word.

  Daddy hung bones on the walls inside our house like some folks hang giveaway calendars or pictures of Jesus. They was mostly bleached-out skulls he found hunting or tending the still. He ran twine through their empty eyes and wound the twine on a tenpenny nail high on the wall. He had the skulls of a fox, bear, bobcat, and panther, and the rib cage of a bear. Daddy even had a man’s skull in the lot. Found it in a cave near a rockslide that pinned the poor soul down till he wasted away. Said it was likely a miner and a dreamer looking for rubies and stones. At night, under moonlight streaming through the front window, those bones glowed like pieces of ghosts.

  Granny won’t set foot in our house cause of Daddy’s bones. Said it was a heathen thing to do. Said it won’t natural. I asked Daddy why he brought such things inside when nobody else did. He grinned and said, “One time these bones was wrapped in flesh and muscle and brains. They mighta fought a good fight to the end. But in the end, even the smart ones is just bones with all the fight gone out. Looking at em makes me think different bout power and petty things.”

  I hear he don’t start hanging bones on the wall till Mama left.

  Some folks say Daddy was a peculiar soul. Some say he was a thinking man. He was funny, gentle, and always a pinch of sad the years I knew him, cause the pitiful truth is he got nothing from loving Mama cept me left behind.

  I think it was a broke heart that killed him, mostly cause Mama left him with a baby girl who lately looked too much like her. I don’t remember her face cept from a faded picture in a dresse
r drawer in a back room at Granny’s. Mama had hair the color of mine, and she was built thin like me. Aunt Marris said she had gumption in her eyes and a slice of selfish that won’t pretty.

  That night Daddy ended up dead, he stumbled in my room on wobbly legs and fell on top of me sleeping in my iron bed. “Carly, my Carly Blue.” He cried out Mama’s name next to my ear, slobbering like a sorry fool. I never liked it when Daddy don’t know me cause he tried things. So I pulled up my knees and pushed, and he fell off me and hit his head on the edge of the bed with a thud. I jumped over his body and run into the woods, wearing a thin nightgown that snagged on brambles that scratched my arms, a ghost girl on bare feet. I hid under the weeping willow at the creek, shivering till the moon went away and morning come shy on the mountain.

  When I walked through the door, I saw death claimed Daddy. His body lay on the floor where I had left him. The color was drained, and his skin was like ash in a fire gone cold. His eyes stayed open, and a fly crawled on his cheek. He puked like drunks do, and it dried in his beard and over his ear and puddled at his neck. Daddy died cause I won’t there to turn him over.

  I wanted to stay at Daddy and my place on Bentwood Mountain, down the road from Granny and Aunt Marris, but Preacher Eli said to move in with Granny so she could help me through a sad time. Granny don’t do my heart any good, but when the roof on Daddy’s house caved in the next big winter snow, I was glad to be outta the rubble. Then that summer, vines started to crawl up the sides and through the broke windows, and over and around those pointy teeth and skulls on the wall. Nowadays, five years since, the vines claim it all.

  • • •

  Now I stand on wobbly legs and whimper like a hurt puppy cause I can’t help it. Today was beating number three since I got legal. I figure Roy don’t need a reason no more. I close the trailer door against the chill, then shuffle to the bathroom to wash off the dried blood. The face in the cracked mirror shows another loose tooth, a split lip, and a eye turning purple. I don’t see me no more in that slice of looking glass. It’s a strange feeling thinking the face in the mirror is somebody else. I half think to see her lips move to talk and mine stay closed, or the other way round.

  Wonder what Miss Shaw, that teacher with her pile of books and globe that whirls, would say now if she saw the fix I’m in. What would she think if she saw my life so different from hers? When I go see her next, I’ll cover the bruises best I can. Don’t need her pity.

  Truth is, I been a sorry fool like Granny called me when Roy Tupkin, all charm and light, showed up every once in a while in early springtime. I’d be leaving Mooney’s place with a sack of supplies or walking to see Birdie or Aunt Marris. Roy would come like fog or a wish with that sassy grin of his. One time he jumped from behind a tree to block my way and made my heart flip. Another time he sneaked up behind me and pulled my hair, him with his lanky frame and eyes locked on nothing but me for a spell. At the start he made me smile and my heart flutter. He made me hide behind my long hair so he don’t see me turn twenty shades of pink.

  Once, when the creek was high water, that man give me his rough hand to help me cross over, and don’t let go of mine right away. When he did, I wanted to grab back his hand cause mine felt safe in his. That’s how stupid I was.

  Another time he carried my paper poke of supplies, and another time blackberries I picked. He walked me to the edge of Granny’s yard but don’t come close to the house cause he won’t welcome. Granny give him the hard eye and pointed her shotgun at him from her porch and said, “I know how to use this here gun. It ain’t for show. Now don’t you step your sorry ass on my land.”

  Roy Tupkin backed away with his hands up, laughing at a big ole woman with stockings knotted at her knees and her cheek bulging with chew. When he left, I cried and run up the stairs to my room and slammed the door. Granny give me a strong talking-to outside my closed door, but that don’t change things cause I was young and dumb. I was pulled by the raw scent of that man, not knowing the stink below the skim of sweet.

  Granny said, back then, through pinched lips and squinty eyes and hissy voice, “You knock them fake stars outta your blind eyes, Sadie Blue, or you gonna lay with the devil and live in hell. When that happens, I can’t help you.”

  I thought she was jealous cause I was happy. I thought I was smart and loved a bad man turned good. I’ve been on a losing streak a long time.

  • • •

  What was funny in the mix was the man Billy Barnhill, back bent, face pocked, hair greasy. When I’d see Roy, there’d be Billy a ways off, hands shoved deep in his pockets, mostly looking at his feet, waiting. I asked Roy what Billy was to him, and he said, “Nobody.”

  The first time I give myself to Roy, I was weak-willed after meeting up just three times. We sat close in the front seat of his truck on the shoulder of Good Luck Pass. One of his hands rooted up under my skirt, and the other pinched a nipple through my blouse to make it rise. Out the corner of my eye, through the rear window, I see Billy in the back bed with the canvas tarps and cement blocks and gas can. He leaned against the tailgate, legs out straight, one hand working inside the slit of his overalls. His mouth was loose and lips wet, him looking at me weird.

  I told Roy that Billy was a creep and I wanted him gone for now. Roy laughed that day and said, “Let him have a little fun,” and pulled me to him. When I pushed back, nervous, the cool coming off my skin, me sliding over to my side of the seat, pulling down my skirt, Roy’s eyes dulled over. He waved for Billy to leave, and Billy jumped out the truck bed, lickety-split, and crossed the ditch. I scooted back into Roy’s arms, but I could still feel Billy’s eyes crawl over me.

  The thing what got me married by summer’s end was the baby growing inside me through four cycles and me still living with Granny. She got meaner every day when she knew I carried Roy’s baby. She found new ways to hurt me and say I was a vile sinner—when she won’t even a Bible reader. She don’t answer when I talk. I walk in a room and she walked out. I step out on the porch, she goes inside. She cooked supper just enough for her and left me starting from scratch if I was to eat.

  I hear ugly talk. Wherever two righteous souls meet up at the Rusty Nickel, God-fearing women standing at the counter with babies on their hips and a ring on their fingers, they whispered loud enough for me to hear, “She was a promisin girl who got ruint by a trashy man.”

  Prudence Perkins said in a hard whisper outside church, “The hellfires of damnation won’t be good enough for you and that bastard you carry.”

  I flushed shameful at such hateful words, cheeks hot, heart bruised and breaking for my innocent child. Preacher Perkins and Mooney tried to stop the ugly when they was in earshot cause they are good men, but tongues let loose rattled on for spite.

  I cried at night back then. Roy don’t come round much, me carrying his flesh and blood, and I yearned for him in the summer dark. I was blind and dumb and slow to learn.

  • • •

  In the heart of the summer heat, it was going on day twenty-six since Roy been by. I was pining and not eating, wanting to up and die from the want of him, when his truck showed up in front of the house. He hit his horn for me to come outside, and I run to him. Without a hello or howdy-do, he said, “Get in,” and I did, but I had to move tools to the floor so I had room to sit. Billy won’t with him this time and I was glad.

  Roy drove a short piece down the road, pulled into the woods, and turned off the motor. I let him have his way with me cause it won’t nothing new. It was over quick, and after, with the truck windows down, and the smell of wildflowers on the air, and his wide hand on my white belly growing big, that teeny foot kicked my innards for the first time and made Roy and me jump.

  Right then, with one baby kick, that man with the dark soul grinned, and it turned his face into something beautiful I never seen before. A light shined in his face on this cloudy day and wiped away shadows that lived behind his e
yes. I brushed back the dark hair on his forehead and kissed it tender, over and over, cause Roy let me.

  He looked up and said, “Let’s get hitched.”

  I pulled back to see if he was fooling, and he looked different enough, so I fell into his arms. I was a fool hanging hope on a weak man I thought would stand tall if we got married.

  That Thursday afternoon in late August, with soggy clouds squatting in the hollers, we drove the truck down the long, winding mountain, through countryside I’d never seen before or since. We crossed the county line, passed the cutoff to Burnsville, into the town Roy said was called Spruce Pine, with stores lining the main street on both sides and the North Toe River flowing by like a wide creek. We found a justice of the peace by a sign in his yard, who answered the door with a napkin tucked in his collar, us interrupting his supper of liver and onions from the smell of it. I wore a off-white dress with a coffee stain on it from breakfast and a tear from getting caught in brambles. Roy wore a T-shirt and a tight grin.

  After we said a quick I do and Roy paid him two dollars, we bought nabs and co’colas at the filling station when Roy got gas, then drove back home in the dusky quiet, not saying a word, shocked to see our names tied together on a legal piece of paper.

  Back at Granny’s, Roy waited in the truck, looking straight ahead. I rushed inside to pack a cardboard box of my things, hands shaking, part of me scared Roy was gonna drive off and leave me. When I called out to Granny I was married legal and leaving, she don’t even come outta her bedroom to say good-bye or a fare-the-well.

  Fifteen days has gone by since that piece of paper got signed. Roy beats on me pretty regular cause nobody stops him. I thought we got married for a mighty reason. I thought I was special to him.

  I musta made it all up, cause none of it’s true.

  • • •

  Daddy’s spirit voice pulls me back from silly memories. He says, “Don’t let your guard down, girl. Roy sold his soul to the devil long ago. Make sure the devil lays claim to it soon.”